Fallen Record

A happy note! A fallen record. A proud moment. A fast moment. A mommy moment. Something to smile about around here...Erika broke the Biola school record (or set the new record if you choose to look at it that way) in the steeplechase last night down in San Diego. Read about it here.
And she is going to nationals again :) And I am happy to be her mom.

Take a peak at the pictures below.

Feel free to check out more race photos here

There will be a Day

I had posted a very heart felt post a few days ago....but it apparently bothered some people that I was open and honest with what I was struggling with....so I deleted it. I had thought about never posting again, yet as I read other blogs and share in others good and bad times I decided that I can't just turn Debbie "Off" I am who I am with feelings and thoughts.
So, yes I am struggling right now. In a very big way with some very big things. My faith is very, very fractured - and maybe one day I will rewrite about that.
But for now I am just going to post a song that I have being listening to by Jeremy Camp. It is something that I am trying so hard to hold on to, trying so hard to believe, trying so hard to trust,trying so hard not to throw away - yet most days that is not working....and I feel I am losing the battle.
Will there ever really be a day???????

Song Words by Artist / Band : Jeremy Camp Lyrics Title : There Will Be A Day Available on Album : Speaking Louder Than Before Single Released : September 23, 2008

I try to hold on to this world with everything I have But I feel the weight of what it brings, and the hurt that tries to grab
The many trials that seem to never end, His word declares this truth That we will enter in this rest with wonders a new
But I hold on to this hope and the promise that He brings
That there will be a place with no more suffering

Chorus There will be a day with no more tears, no more pain, and no more fears There will be a day when the burdens of this place, will be no more, we’ll see Jesus face to face But until that day, we’ll hold on to you always

I know the journey seems so long You feel you’re walking on your own
But there has never been a step
Where you’ve walked out all alone

Chorus There will be a day with no more tears, no more pain, and no more fears There will be a day when the burdens of this place, will be no more, we’ll see Jesus face to face
But until that day, we’ll hold on to you always

Troubled soul don’t lose your heart
Cause joy and peace he brings And the beauty that’s in store
Outweighs the hurt of life’s sting
I cant wait until that day where the very one I’ve lived for always will wipe away the sorrow that I’ve faced
To touch the scars that rescued me from a life
of shame and misery this is why this is why I sing

Buttons

I played around today and was finally able to figure out how to add some buttons to my side bar. You can click on them and it takes you to those sites...special women, special babies and I go to these sites frequently for inspiration for the women are such great writers and are good about expressing what is going on in their hearts and lives. Open and transparent - how I imagine myself to be at some point....
I also added a couple of blogs to 'my daily blog fix' that I couldn't figure out how to add as a button...so check those out also.
You can see what I do with what free time I have - which lately is very little since I should be studying and not playing on the computer!! :)
I'll keep playing around for there a couple of others I want to try and add.

Return

Alright, Alright! After more than one person asked if I was still alive and / or OK I decided I'd better get back to blogging. Seems there are people that actually read what I post - if you can believe that one?!?! So I'll take a return trip to let you know what has been going on in my life the past few months:

• first off is school - it is going well and I am so far getting all A's in my classes which even I must say is not an easy accomplishment. I am finding that I am really enjoying school and jut wish I had more time to devote to it - I am learning new things!
• Still working away at the hospital...plus I picked up a second small job back in February. I am now also employed by St Joseph home health / hospice working with our comfort care mommies on the outpatient side. So now I get to know them prior to their delivery. It is not a job with many hours and we don't have any current patients (guess that is a good thing in a way), but I am looking forward to helping our next patient work on their birth plan, do education, and provide support during their walk through pregnancy and grief.
• the foot continues to be an issue and Buzz is not working...I will try to post more on this later but just don't have the words yet to say and am not ready to share all that has happened
• Jon turns 26 tomorrow - so hard to believe that I have a son that is an adult of that age. Where did the time go? He is an awesome dad to little Lilly


• speaking of Lilly - she is one now - runs all over and just cracks all of us up. She has quite an independent streak and LOVES animals of all kinds
• Erika has qualified for outdoor nationals in the steeple chase. So we are planning a trip to Missouri to watch her run in late May :) She is still loving Biola and I rarely see her


• Michelle continues to commute to Long Beach State. In fact we bought a second car , named "little car" so that she has a reliable mode to travel in...and I really think it is a fun little car to drive also. She is playing on an intramural soccer team...the only girl on the team but she kicks butt!

I will leave you with a few pictures - since I think they tell a much bigger story than my words....



the lovely Lilly and I:

Lovely Lilly, Giddyup Pony:Erika performing:Michelle going for it: