I had posted a very heart felt post a few days ago....but it apparently bothered some people that I was open and honest with what I was struggling with....so I deleted it. I had thought about never posting again, yet as I read other blogs and share in others good and bad times I decided that I can't just turn Debbie "Off" I am who I am with feelings and thoughts.
So, yes I am struggling right now. In a very big way with some very big things. My faith is very, very fractured - and maybe one day I will rewrite about that.
But for now I am just going to post a song that I have being listening to by Jeremy Camp. It is something that I am trying so hard to hold on to, trying so hard to believe, trying so hard to trust,trying so hard not to throw away - yet most days that is not working....and I feel I am losing the battle.
Will there ever really be a day???????
Song Words by Artist / Band : Jeremy Camp Lyrics Title : There Will Be A Day Available on Album : Speaking Louder Than Before Single Released : September 23, 2008
I try to hold on to this world with everything I have But I feel the weight of what it brings, and the hurt that tries to grab
The many trials that seem to never end, His word declares this truth That we will enter in this rest with wonders a new
But I hold on to this hope and the promise that He brings
That there will be a place with no more suffering
Chorus There will be a day with no more tears, no more pain, and no more fears There will be a day when the burdens of this place, will be no more, we’ll see Jesus face to face But until that day, we’ll hold on to you always
I know the journey seems so long You feel you’re walking on your own
But there has never been a step
Where you’ve walked out all alone
Chorus There will be a day with no more tears, no more pain, and no more fears There will be a day when the burdens of this place, will be no more, we’ll see Jesus face to face
But until that day, we’ll hold on to you always
Troubled soul don’t lose your heart
Cause joy and peace he brings And the beauty that’s in store
Outweighs the hurt of life’s sting
I cant wait until that day where the very one I’ve lived for always will wipe away the sorrow that I’ve faced
To touch the scars that rescued me from a life
of shame and misery this is why this is why I sing