Friday, February 18, 2011


Sometimes I come home from work, wondering how I ever ended up in a job like this?!?!

Today was on of those days ~

People in pain.
Fetal heart rates dropping.
High blood pressures.
Mom's bleeding.
Art lines being placed.
Babies being born early.
Baptisms being done at birth.
Patients transferred to the ICU.
Grandparents crying.
MD's not cooperating.
Families suffering.
MD's being very understanding.
Babies dying.
Staff cursing.
Developing photos of babies now gone.
Patients being thankful.
Patients being not so thankful.
Father's sobbing in the hallway.
Charge nurse asking for help (of which I have to say - "I can't)
Calls to coroners.
no lunch until after 2 pm.
aching feet.
Old tired body.

I come from such humble beginnings. From a long line of farmer's. What the heck am I doing in such an important, high stress position?!?! I should be on a farm ~ birthing cows and horses, not little human beings.

Yet, the amazing thing is...I will rest tonight and go right back to it. To the craziness and real life stuff.

The one who never dreamed I might make a difference for someone.
The one who only wanted to stay home and raise her own children.
The one who just wants to read a good novel and forget this 'real life stuff'.
The one who believes in good and right.
The one who always thought "dreams come true" just like in the fairy tales.

I talked with another nurse today - we tried to figure out another job that we could do that would preserve our sanity....we came up with...nothing...Being a nurse is just a part of who I am.

Somedays are good, others are not so good.

Today was just 'one of those days'.
Yet, one of those days where I would like to think that God has me where He wants me. One of those days where I want to think that bad things don't happen to good people ~ even though it certainly didn't "feel" that way today.
I need to trust in God's ultimate plan for things and be there in some of that.

Hope I made a difference for at least one person today.


Stacy@hiswaynotmine said...

You have and you will...make a difference for many! For such a time as this, God has raised you up and placed you right where He wants you....let His light so shine before men. In the midst of the craziness, sadness, joy, and uncertaintly....there you are in the midst, a beacon for His glory!

And everyday, you get to be a part of the miracle of God...the miracle of life. The preciousness. The beauty. The fragility. The emotion.

He will preserve your sanity, as you keep resting in Him.

Much love,

Dana said...

If you comforted a family who lost their baby, you made a difference today. The nurses I had when my baby boy was stillborn made a huge difference to me and I still think of them and am grateful for what they did. I'm sure your patients feel the same way about you.

Holly said...

Im sorry it was such a stressful day. I have no doubt you make a difference. Praying for those families in need of comfort :(