Friday, August 19, 2011

Just a Dream

Have you ever had one of those dreams that seems so real that when you wake up you can't shake it??

Well, I had one of those.

I haven't been sleeping well lately (yes, I'm in that age where hormones start to go wacky again). I seem to be able to fall asleep but wake up and spend most of the night watching the clock. So, I have been using a little unasom or Tylenol pm to help me get some decent rest.

And I know that I have been a little stressed with Dad having surgery, Mom having some weird kidney problem, and other family things. I am the one in the family who tends to worry about all of the family members. I know it is the nurse in me. The one who wants to fix everything and make it all better.

So, I had this dream last night....odd thing was that in my dream my parents still lived on the old street that we grew up on (they haven't lived there for 20 years!!).
In my dream, my younger sister had a suspicious growth on an ultrasound or something. She is taken to surgery where they find cancer every where and just close her back up. They tell me there is nothing they can do and I feel that I have to find a way to get her home. There is no way I'm going to let her stay in the hospital so I start formulating a plan as to how to get her home where I can care for her as she is dying. My mom and I consult with a neighbor who have their dying daughter at home.

I fight to wake up...
I think, "wow, where did that dream come from?"

I have been "off" all day...disturbed and worried.

I finally texted my sister while she was at work - asking if she was ok. "You are not sick or anything are you?" I tell her I had such a strange dream about her. "like a cold or what?" she asks. "Naw, I say - no worries...just wanted to be sure you were ok and encourage you to get any unusual symptoms checked out."
She responds back ~ "Yes, dear"

I know that it was just a dream, but is sure seemed real!
Maybe I need a vacation!
~ Debbie ~

1 comment:

amoryg said...

I have these dreams too and they affect me all day long! Like I have a baby and it's a stillborn or my mom is really sick, etc. It's awful!

I hope you have sweet dreams soon!

Just caught up on all of your posts... missed your writing!